Life is Swell

Superb. Spectacular. Scintillating. I could go on, although maybe not with s's. But for reals, holy crap life is just amazing currently. I suddenly find myself living this near dream life. But I'm awake, this is my life. I am completely overwhelmed by the immense love I have for K and that she has for me. I've never felt anything close to this. I swear just staring at her makes me fall in love again and again all day long. Every little thing about us fits perfectly. When we met it felt so right. I swear it was us picking up where we had left off from the last life. I've never been overly into any form or religion or belief. But it's impossible to ignore the feeling that we've always been together and this is us meeting again. We found each other. And fuck, why not? Maybe that is just how it is. And if meeting my one true love wasn't enough, we just signed a lease on a ridiculously amazing house. Right back downtown where I belong, up the hill with an amazing view. Perfect. Well perfect would be oh I don't know, free! But it's pretty damn fantastic and I wish we could live here a long time. But as it is I know we get at least a year.

So while all this perfect life shit has been unfurling I've still been trudging along at work. Oh work. This summer by far has been the most stressful work season ever. So frustrating to have everything else in my life amazing and to be stressed to the point of tears at work. Are you kidding me?! It's not even like I'm saving lives! I'm selling damn tourists completely frivolous items for fuck's sake! I shouldn't be stressed to the max over it. Yet I have been. Horribly horribly stressed. So I quit. I've quit in the past. Twice I think, over the past six years. But it's never been mid season, as much as I've wanted to just walk away on the busiest day possible. But this season I just couldn't go any further. It wasn't getting better and I know it would only continue to get worse. So I am working till the end of the month. We completely changed my job and pay for the remainder of the time. I'm no longer in charge of everything, just office shiz. Which is great because I was already in charge of office stuff I just couldn't get it done as I was supposed to be selling at the same time and managing everyone. So really I'm doing the shop a super duper favor by sticking around at all and doing all kinds of admin stuff that should have been done forever ago. It's actually quite interesting, partially cause I'm a nerd and like office stuff. But also because I have been doing the same stuff forever. For-ev-er. It's nice to learn even if it's just simple data entry on bookkeeping software. And it's more skills for my next job. I'm applying for a position at the city museum which I think would just be killer. I'm a nerd and I love art and local history. Perfect! So perfect. Oh and the museum is two blocks straight down hill from my house. I can see it from where I'm currently sitting. So talk about a dream commute. I really really reeeeaaally hope I get it. I know I'd be great and they'd be fools to pass me up. Fools I tell you!

So the other stress I've had this summer was planning my fundraiser event. Why the eff I thought planning such an involved party in the summer when I'm working 50 odd hours a week was a good idea I'll never know! I was so afraid it wasn't going to come together and it came damn close to not. Like the week of the show we suddenly only had two performers and one, my lovely amazing K was nervous cause she had never done it and couldn't decide on her songs. But literally last minute two friends stepped up and we ended up with four performers who each did two songs. Other super amazing friends got a ton of silent auction items donated and helped tremendously. I worked the flogger booth which was a much bigger hit than we all anticipated. It warmed my tiny grinch heart to see so many people that I didn't know and who didn't look like the type to care about a gay/ AIDS non profit fundraiser show up and open their wallets. Juneau has a heart and that night I saw it. It was such a great feeling to see the bar full of people, waving dollars, bidding on items, making floggers. I was very proud of everyone involved and the people willing to have a good time and help an amazing cause. I am much more motivated to do another show, but I think I'll stick to winter time when I don't have quite as much on my plate.

So yeah that's my life. It's pretty charmed if I do say so myself. Here are some pics of the house and the show and my beautiful amazing can't-wait-to-not-have-to-say-future future wife. Oh yeah! I finally filed the dissolution papers! By September I can be legally wed to my beautiful fiance, well in six smart states, Alaska stupidly not being one of them. But it will be so nice to not be married anymore. And then married again once and for all!

Okay nix the pix. Stupid free wifi. I mean, yaaay free yet shitty internet!